Your Birthdate: June 25

Your birth on the 25th day of the month (7 energy) modifies your life path by giving you some special interest in technical, scientific, or other complex and often hard to understand subjects. You may become something of a perfectionist and a stickler for details. Your thinking is logical and intuitive, rational and responsible. Your feelings may run deep, but you are not very likely to let them show. This birthday makes you a more private person, more introspective and perhaps more inflexible. In friendships you are very cautious and reserved. You are probably inventive, and given to unique approaches and solutions.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

OK so the test i was SOOOOOOOOOOOO worried about the other day, i got a 93% on. so i guess i don't have to know everything as in depth as i thought i did. and that's a good thing... it will mean that i will be able to FLY through the last 9 tests. i am almost ready to write the next 2... and i am aiming to be done in the next 4 weeks... so really... thats only 2 a week... and one week... 3.... i can do it! finished my first transcribing tape... every report is a different doctor so it makes it kinda hard... in reality, you'd have a chance to get used to the same doctor... at least to finish a whole tape!!

TGIF, eh. Although I can't say too much, I wasn't in class yesterday. I know, I know. Old habits die hard, tho :P Actually I thought I was going to have to get into the bank to get my loan all figured out, but they surprised my and it was there!!! A little bit of happy news anyway...

SOoooooooooo, i went up west with mom for the afternoon... AND i'm headin back up there tonight... last weekend at the cottage! sigh... it's gonna be sooooooooo cold there... not really looking forward to it... but i guess i'll just layer on the sweaters and wool socks :P

well, guess it's about lunchtime... i should probably go eat something... eventually...

*Finally* wrote that gosh darn test... and I *still* wasn't ready for it. argh. aw well, t'is over, and I don't give a darn whether I passed or failed... still... it *would* be nice to pass... sigh... either way though, 1 down and 9 to go...

All set to start transcribing tomorrow... I was going to start today but I really wanted to get rid of that test so I put it off until tomorrow... Got the tape and everything to start with though, so it should be an interesting morning...

I want to be at home in bed RIGHT NOW. Lol. I feel like I am going to fall over onto the computer and just sleep right here... I may yet... I do have an hour or so left that I am stuck here for...

I wish I had a job... No... No, I don't. COrrection. I wish I had a job for as soon as I finished this course. Yes, that would make my life.

Guess it's time for a quick update. I got up at 5:30... ok ok... it was closer to 6 :P to drive from O'leary to Summerside this morning in time to catch my dad to get a drive to Charlottetown with him. I have got to stop doing that. I need my sleep!!! Lol.

So, today I had my intro to Transcribing, and it looks like it's going to be extremely long, boring, and monotonous. I'm FINALLY writing my test on the endocrine system today... or at least I am *ready* to write it... and I will... assuming that it's back from productions so that I can :P Argh. Anyways, I hafta get back to work here... it's almost 11 and I'm gonna write at 1 so I have some major work to get done before then...

An email forward... but I like it

By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands." The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish." "But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hours a day." The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish." "Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate." The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the angel asked. The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing." And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love, and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes, and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

Back to Normal

So, today's Wednesday. I am back to class, and we are all trying to get things back to normal. As a family, we have been at each other's throats the last couple of days. It has been such a stressful time. But now, the worst is over (I hope). Art, Troy, and Janice made it home on Sunday. I have no idea when they are planning to go back to Ontario, but I would assume Friday or Saturday...

So very tired today. Got up at 5ish... well, the alarm was set for 5... I think the snooze button got hit once or twice, but managed to get back to Summerside in time to catch a drive to Charlottetown with dad...

So much to say, but I am swamped with work right now... perhaps later... or perhaps not... we shall see...

Well, the waiting is over and now the healing can begin. Yesterday at about 3:30, Grampie passed away. We were all there. Arlene started reading from the bible, and I think that's when he knew he was ready.

So, the family wake is tonight. The public wakes are tomorrow. And the funeral is on Tuesday. After that, things can start getting back to normal.

Rachel and David and Michael came over right after Dale's funeral (their stepdad) only to find their grandfather gone. My heart is going out to them... they have a rough time in front of them... but in the end, we have each other and our faith to help us through this.

how much more can we all take? plz. just let me know what the f*ck else can happen?????

1.First name? Allyson
2. Were you named after anyone? Je ne sais pas.
3. Do you wish on stars? Always.
4. When did you last cry? 7:00 this morning when I was talking to my dad about Grampie.
5.Do you like your handwriting? Some days.
6.What is your favorite lunch meat? Um... I dunno...
8. What is your most embarrassing CD? Johnny Favorite Swing Orchestra.
9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? Yeah Im great!
10. Do you keep a journal? Yeppers, you're reading one of them :P
11. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Noo not at all lol
12. What are your nicknames? al, ally, etc.
13.Would you bungee jump? for sure, someday
14. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? depends
15. Do you think that you are strong? if the need arises, i can be a lot of things
16. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? chocolate chip cookie dough
17. Shoe Size? 8
18. Red or pink? Pink
19. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? I dunno...
20. Who do you miss most? umm.. dunno
21. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back? hey yeah.. cept im not sending it to anyone :S
22. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? tan skirt and white sandals
23. What are you listening to right now? Me clicking the keys -- I am in the computer lab at school
24. What is the last thing you ate? Well... i have a halls in my mouth, does that count?
25. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Pink ( who thought of this question?
26. What is the weather like right now? I dunno. I am inside and there are no windows in this room.
27.Last person you talked to on the phone? Matt last night.
28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? smile
29. Do you like the person who sent this to you? sure
30. Favorite Drink? mmm milk
31. Favorite Sport? eww sport
32. Hair Color? brown
33. Eye Color? brown
34. Do you wear contacts? no
35. Favorite Food? i like lots of different foods... mmmm
36. Last Movie You Watched? i dunno... maybe garfield
37. Favorite Day of the Year? christmas
38. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? Happy Endings
39. Summer Or Winter? Summer!
40. Hugs OR Kisses? Kisses AND Hugs
41. What is your favoriet dessert? ice cream
42. Who Is Most Likely To Respond? no one it is not an email it is a post
43. Who Is Least Likely To Respond? plz see above
44. Living Arrangements? With parents...cause i am poor
45. What Books Are You Reading? I am reading anatomy for school... and for fun... the alphabetic hookup list
46. What's On Your Mouse Pad? the mouse
47. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? um... i watched... oooo part of design rivals and the end of sex and the city
49. Favorite Sounds? definitely water
50. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Beatles
51. Where's the furthest you've been from home? dominican
52. Do you have a special talent? nope
53. What is your ring tone? brown eyed girl

Back in town

Once again I have graced the hallways of Holland College with my presence. I just went to talk to my instructor to let her know that I don't know what my attendance will be like in the next week or so, and she decided to put me on compassionate leave until the end of the month. All that means is that if I don't finish up the course by the time I am supposed to, I will have this extra time that I can come back and use without having to pay more tuition -- which is a good thing I guess... but hell, I would pay the extra money if I had to... Anyway, I plan on being here tomorrow at least... and hopefully Thursday.

All I have left in the program is a math project -- she said a morning or afternoon would wrap that up, anatomy -- which was reduced from what I had been working on to 10 tests instead of 12 so yay, and finally transcribing.

Gramp didn't wake up at all in the couple of hours I was there last night... when the minister came in at 7 I slipped out...

I got my black jacket back from Amanda last night -- Theresa was going to buy one as she figured she would need it for the wake and funeral so I told her she could use mine if she wanted...

Arlene asked me to make a picture board with "The greatest gift of all lives on in others" to display. So that's kinda good. Keeps my hands busy anyway. Mom is still hardly sleeping and one of the boys are always staying there now. I don't know what to do. I want to be there in the vicinity but the other day I realized that I don't want to be there when the end actually comes. It was just way too painful to count the seconds between his breaths. At one point he only breathed every 30 seconds and we were all just hanging on for his next breath... It's just so painful to watch.

Yesterday, Gram asked him if he remember what he did when they met. Gram had been working at a restaurant and she said a handsome man came in and she didn't want him to catch her looking at him. He acted like he didn't notice her, but when he went to leave, he winked at her three times. He did the same thing yesterday. After he did it once, he kept going and Gram was crying, saying, jumpins we'll never keep him quiet now that we got him going. So his mind is definitely still there... he knows whats going on. He told mom that a truck was coming to take him to the funeral home the other day and the other night he kept saying they're coming at three for me, and i asked who, and he just kept mumbling three, i'll be gone at three... You can barely hear him anymore, his voice is so faint...

Sigh.

I am so thankful for the family tho. Les and Jess especially. We would never get through this without eack other, that is for sure. And with the three of us together with Dad I know we can be strong enough for Mom when she'll need us to be.

I need a hug

These days just keep getting more and more cheerful. That was sarcasm, by the way. I am just so tired.

What an absolutely emotional day. Trevor spent the night at the cottage last night and after dropping Matt off at work, me and Trevor went back to the farm... Allyson tired plus the opportunity to cry = the beginning of a very long and tearful day.

Mr. Robichaud died this morning. I didn't realize that his health was so bad at this point. Cancer. Bah.

So, continuing with the day. I got a drive with Steve to Summerside around 9:30 this morning, and fell asleep at lunchtime. Woke up a while ago after Jess got home from school, and had another big cry. Things are looking slightly up at this moment.

So the last thing to look forward to is the car drive back up west with mom... hopefully it will be quiet and uneventful... we shall see... we shall see...

So this is the first day of UPEI. For some reason, I still feel as though I should be going back there... Alas, I am lucky that my class doesn't start until Monday... I get an extra couple of days to myself. Yay me. I came home to Summerside last night, but I am heading back up to O'Leary later this afternoon... It was a pretty emotional weekend... the boys were home, and Arlene and Troy left with Art, but Trevor ended up staying here for a little while longer. Arlene will be back as soon as she can. Mom is staying at the farm with Grampie and Grammie until Arlene or Shirley gets back... God, this is tough. It's so hard to be there, and it's so hard NOT to be there. Sigh.

It's so quiet here. I'm not used to being around here when no one else is, but Mom is up west, Dad and Les are in Charlottetown, and Jess is at school... gotta love being alone with my thoughts...

Ok. Time to smile.

Hopefully some happier thoughts later.

Ok. SO I haven't been up this early of my own volition in a while. But here I am. On my way to Halifax this morning with Misty. Her and her family are moving Savanna and her friends to Halifax today, and MIsty wanted company for the drive home so she wouldn't have to drive alone, so yay me. can't pass up an opportunity anywhere :P

les is done of work and jess' last day is today. I'm done on sunday. found a great job i am applyting to but don't want to say just what it is to everyone yet in case i jinx it.

sigh. i went to bed at 9 last night, and i am still sleepy *blush* ah well, have to do the same thing again tonight i guess :P

well i better go and at least run a brush through my hair, and then i'm leaving to meet them in borden at the bridge... later.