A smile speaks a thousand words...

Sigh. I wish I could find that guy who could tell me what my 6 smiles are. Sorry. Just watched Win A Date With Tad Hamilton. That is exactly the type of guy I need... Someone who knows those details. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOh K. Enough of that.

"No, I'm not gonna worry
No, I'm in no hurry
It's in the hands of fate
There's nothing I can do
And it might be tomorrow
Or the one that follows
Got the rest of my life to look forward to
'Cause every day is
One day closer to you..."
- Carolyn Dawn Johnson

So. Today I have the day off. This is going to get boring. I can't wait to get the car fixed because I hate being stuck in the house. Not that I can't walk anywhere... because I can. I just like knowing that I have a car at my disposal.

Summer time, and I have a cold. Perfect timing *sniffle*
Oh well, the way that the weather has been, it is hard to believe that it is summer.

Saturday was interesting. Turned out to be quite a drive-y day. Luckily though, in the end, I did not have to try and find my way to Tyler's in Cardigan... I was so tired by the end of the day... If I would have had to go there, I think I would have fallen asleep driving home.

Went up to O'leary around 11 in the morning, stayed to visit with Lorri and Dominick till 1... then drove back to Summerside... Had "lunch" in K'Town with the girls around 3... Went to Ch'Town... Did some shopping... ran into "blah" ... then got home around 7ish... Was supposed to go out in ch'town saturday night but since had been planning on going to Cardigan, couldn't go...

Blah Blah Blah.

Lol, this is so boring.

I am going to shut up.

Boredom

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Pardon the rain... didn't plan it this way... saw an old flame today

Argh Argh Argh. What are the chances? Ran smack into this guy that I haven't seen in ages... The last time I saw him was when I was kind enough to invite to my place for the night... and he politely refused... and he never called again...

*Blush Blush Blush*

What the fuck is wrong with me??????

Singing in the rain...

Woo-hoo. It's raining. That means a slow day at work. I should be able to get caught up a little on my book. I haven't put much effort into it in the last couple of weeks. I've been focusing on the poetry book for so long, I almost forgot about the novel.... Soon... SoOn... :D

Birthday Countdown.... 30 days till 22....

Cabin Fever

Such a boring day today. Ab-so-lute-ly nada happened. I had the day off and I have a ton of errands that should have been run today, but I ended up having no car -- which means nothing got done. Instead I ended up staying inside all day.

Hmm... I tried a new self-tanner. It doesn't look too bad. At least it's not streaky. The last one I tried, I turned orange and streaky. Let's not forget the Mystic-Tan fiasco from January either. Blah, I will NEVER get that done again... that was tip to toe orangey-streaky-brown. Ick. Anyways, I only did my legs today, figured I could cover them up if I had to :P But yay, bonus that I won't have to.

So I guess that I am working tomorrow and Friday... Maybe I will stay up west tomorrow night... hmm.. something to think about anyway.

Well, a car is FINALLY home. Think I might go out just for a drive... anything to get out of this place...

Nothing interesting to say...

Back to work today. Shouldn't be too bad. At least I got a chance to let my mind relax a little yesterday :) Coming on the end of last week I was getting pretty frazzled. I even overcharged hot army boy *blush* which means that the next time I see him I'm gonna have to apologize... which means talking to him... lol... I am such a loser.

Hmm. Well, this is Tuesday. No big plans this week really, other than to get through it. I was up at the cottage, um, a week ago Sunday and I have some work to get done up there so I will probably go up and spend a day there this week.... and... um... I guess I am going to Charlottetown Saturday, yay shopping. We are gonna make a girls' day of it. Me, Leslie, Jessica, and Nikki are gonna go down... Should be a good day.

Yikes. It's 5 to 12. I ought go finish getting ready or I will be late... Got to be in O'leary by 1...

Aloha!

Sweet. Mark's thinkin' about having a luau at his house in the next couple of weeks!!!! Yay, luau!!!!

I had such a nice day. Slept in... didn't go to work :D... Lazed around here for a while... didn't really do anything :P It was so nice!!!!!

Here's a piece from such a great song... It's been stuck in my head all day.

"I am not a pretty girl
That's not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distress
And I don't need to be rescued
So put me down punk
Wouldn't you prefer a maiden fair
Isnt there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere?"

I am so hooked on Ani Difranco's music lately. This is from "Not a Pretty Girl."

Survey

FULL NAME: Allyson Ashley Young

BIRTHDAY: June 25, 1982

STAR SIGN: That would make me a Cancerian

HEIGHT: 5"3ish

WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF: The dark :P

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS OR GLASSES? Neither, yay me

YOUR PERFECT MAN/WOMAN: I Have no idea.....I suck at relationships..so someone who understands me and who can talk to me and who just loves me :(

EMBARRASSING MOMENT: Well, most are tres embarrassing and I wouldn't want to share... Hmm.. perhaps one of the most recent includes a guy I still blush at every time I see... It happened last summer... and I didn't see him at all during the winter... but now... I have seen him three times in the last two weeks. I can't even look him in the eye without blushing. Lol, bet ya thought I was gonna tell you the story... :P


SIBLINGS: Two younger sisters... Leslie and Jessica

DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY?Most of the time...

HAVE YOU EVER HATED ANY PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY? Yes..... not my immediate family... but extended...

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE....

VEGETABLE: Broccoli... sad, isn't it

FRUIT: Mmm, does pineapple ice cream topping count lol... That is the only fruit I have eaten in the last three days... Oops no, I take that back... I did eat an apple.

FAST FOOD: Mmm... I am so hungry!!! Subway Roast Chicken.. mm-mm :D

MEAT: I don't know. I guess I eat most of it.

CANDY: All this talk of food!!! Sigh. Swedish Berries!

MOVIES: Grease. Pretty in Pink. Pretty Woman. Jaws. And most recently... Down with Love.

TV SHOWS: Um. Fear Factor?

ACTRESS: Molly Ringwald

ACTOR: Ryan Reynolds

PLACE TO VISIT: Maine, I think.

COLOR(S): Blue.

SPORT(S): Football, maybe

FAVOURITE NUMBER(S): 25

FLOWER: Roses, how cliche

BRAND OF SHOES: Um, Candies.

COLOGNE/PERFUME: Hugo Boss/ Pink Clouds

CAREER: Undecided

HAVE YOU EVER LOVED SOMEBODY SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY?: Yes. It sucks. Majorly.

DRANK ALCOHOL? Mm-hmm.

SMOKED? Nope

DONE DRUGS? not that i know of

BROKEN THE LAW? Yes

BROKEN A BONE? Nope

KISSED SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW?: some people i didn't know WELL....

PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE? Yes

GOT IN A FIGHT? Yes

BEEN IN A POLICE CAR? Yes

BEEN ON A PLANE? Yep

COME CLOSE TO DYING?: I thought so.

BEEN IN A SAUNA? No.

BEEN IN A HOT TUB? No.

BEEN IN THE OCEAN? Yes

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...

HOCKEY? Family Feud. Montreal Vs Toronto.

ABORTION? Don't agree with it at all. Not for me. Not my place to judge you, though, if you do it.

COUNTRY MUSIC? I grew up on country music

CLASSICAL? I like it..it reminds me of being in band..

OLDIES? I LOVE THE OLDIES

OPERAS: Never seen one before

AMUSEMENT PARKS? I love amusement parks!!!!

WHAT IS...
THE LAST THING YOU HAD TO EAT? I had a bag of chips on my drive home tonight. I needed to. It was a bad day. Trust me.

MOST EMBARASSING C.D IN YOUR COLLECTION: Ummmmmmmmmmmm...........

YOUR BEDROOM LIKE? Jam-Packed

YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?: The ring my grandmother gave me.

ARE YOU A...
VEGETARIAN? No. I'm pretty sure I could never be one.

ODD STUDENT?Um. I like to think not!

GOOD DRIVER? Depends, Lol.

GOOD AT SPORTS? umm..I don't know..some probably

GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS? Have this fear of being in front of people... so... NO!

DEEP SLEEPER? Some nights.

SHY?: Yes... Always was, Am now, and Forever shall be.

STORYTELLER? sometimes

HAVE YOU EVER HAD...
CHICKEN POX? yep in grade 3... missed brownie camp :( oh and my birthday

SORE THROAT? of course

COLDS? yes,

STITCHES? When I got my wisdom teeth out. I think that's all.

SOMEONE BESIDES YOUR FAMILY SAY THEY LOVE YOU? Yes. But I guess If you're not family, you don't have to necessarily MEAN it. Or at least that's what I've learned thus far.

LIKE PICNICS? :) YES!

LIKE SCHOOL? Hmm. Well I just finished up 16 years, and I'm going back for more.

COLLECT ANYTHING? Teddy bears.

LIKE TO SHOP? SHOPOHOLIC

ANYTHING PIERCED? Nada... yet.

ANYTHING TATOOED: A butterfly on my back

WHAT ARE YOUR NICKAMES? Hmm. Al. Ally. Ally-so. Allysonia. Punkin' a long time ago. I still get the rest. Argh. I like Allyson best.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE MOTTO? "Don't be afraid to be yourself: The people who matter don't care, The people who care don't matter."

.....Day 7......

Almost there :) Only 3 days left...

Gram made it through the operation with flying colors... I've never been so relieved.

Stayed the night up west last night. Came back to Summerside early this morning tho. Argh.

Back to O'Leary for 1.

I must be flippin' crazy.

Exhausted

Guess I haven't written something here in a while. I have been so busy. I went back to work last week. Since Mom went with Gram I have worked every day since Saturday and will have to work everyday through Sunday. I am finding it really difficult. That's working 81 hours in 9 days in a row. Plus 9 hours driving there and home. Plus 3.5 hours between cleaning above and beyond the hours I'm getting paid to work. Sigh. It's really starting to get to me... and this will only be day 6...

The worst is, today Gram is having her operation. I bawled the entire way home last night. A couple of days ago, I was ok about the whole thing. But last night Grampie said something that really upset me. He thinks this could be the end :'( He is really worried about her. I don't know what HE would do without her, let alone everyone else.

I think I am going to stay there tonight. He has asked me stay every night so far... and I hate to leave him there all alone. Plus it would save me another late-night drive home.

Big News

Just got off the phone with my grandmother. She finally has her appointment for surgery. It's in two weeks in Toronto. I am so scared right now. I have this horrifying feeling that she is not strong enough right now to make it through. And I can't lose her, I just can't. It wasn't supposed to come this fast. We were supposed to have a couple more months... and more notice, I thought.

I guess it is all in God's hands right now.

Allyson Young, B.Sc.

Hehe. How nice does that sound?! I can't believe I'm going to graduate tomorrow! I don't really want to go to the ceremony BUT I am. It feels good enough just to have passed everything. Here's the breakdown of my final marks.

Medieval Art - 78; Coulda been better, hmm, seems he doesn't like it when you can't remember the name of the church... oops

Folksongs of Atlantic Canada - 82; So glad I did this well in this class, I wasn't expecting an 80 considering throughout the semester I couldn't break an 80 on ANY of his assignments...

Developmental Psych - 84; Pretty good for the lack of effort put into this class, I must say... Haha... It was one where I learned just about everything before... so I didn't really study... Eek... Probably should have... I just barely missed getting first class standing by like 3 percent... Argh... Oh well

English Grammar - 86; Not complaining 'bout this one!

Psychology of Religion - 94; Officially the highest mark I ever made at UPEI in my four years :)

I wish that I had done a little better first semester, it would have been so great to graduate with a first class standing... Oh well... I have the Degree!!!!

Did soooooooooooo much travelling yesterday... Went to O'Leary at 9:30... Got home about 3:30, just in time to leave for Chtown... Got back from Chtown just in time to drive Leslie and Kayla to the Rodd in Mill River... And everywhere in between it seemed... That was the longest drive up west i've ever made...

But yay! Got cheered up yesterday. Bought some Steves... nothing makes me as happy as a new pair of shoes lol.

And, got a grass skirt for the luau... Can't wait... Hehe... found a coconut bra, but decided against that one... lol.. can you imagine!?!

Picked up a wheelchair for Gram... I hope she will be able to come tomorrow... I took her for a drive.. um... Thursday I think... and it's really scary I think she is getting a lot worse...

Still numb... Although not quite as numb as I have been... At least I have faith now that the feeling will eventually come back!

Work Monday... Sigh.

MS is just about done. I can't quite figure out how I want to end it.... Should they get back together... or was it doomed from the beginning?????? I think it was doomed :P Anyways, once I figure that I only have a couple hours of writing left :D I've already started proofing the rest... Sooooooooooo happy about that. Plus the Poetry book is well on its way... Soon... tres tres soon... I can't wait to Publish!!!!!

Snow tomorrow. What is the chance of that. May 8, and they are calling for flurries. Sigh. It will be chilly walking across campus in that!!!

I don't want another heartbreak, I don't need another turn to cry...

But for me, that's inevitable, isn't it? Argh. Sunday morning... should have woken up on a much happier note, but after the events of last night, I don't know whether to be hurt or angry. Right now, I'm hurting. God.

So now. I guess I'm officially NOT going to the Grad Ball. I refuse to go alone. The dress can sit in my closet for all I care.

:'(