Christmas again. I absolutely love this season :) However, I am thinking that it is too early to be decorating. Every morning, I come to school, and am bombarded with lights, holly, and carols. It's not even December yet, people!!! I love the last week before Christmas, it's just magical, there is no other way to describe it. I've been trying to figure out what kind of gifts to get people this year. It gets harder and harder every year, but I think I am on the right track :D I will have to set aside a day for shopping and then another one for the 'finishing touches.' What is she making? Well, I guess you will have to wait until Christmas to find out :P

More School?!

In the computer lab at school. Contemplating the reason why I am considering submitting myself to further, yes, further education. I would like to apply to a pharmacy technician course that starts in July. Is this feasible? It is something I would like to do, yes, but is it practical at all? And, do I really want to do yet another year of schooling at this point?? Upon my completion of the program that I am in right now, I will be a medical secretary. I will have the cerificate for medical support, as well as a B.Sc. from UPEI. I will be working in the medical field, without actually being a doctor, or nurse, which would have been my first choice if I weren't so deathly afraid of blood. Shouldn't this make me happy? Pharmacy has always been my goal, however, my chem skills were simply not up to par. There is a chance, though, of my acceptance at a pharmacy school in the fall of 2006, IF I suck it up and complete Physics I and II at UPEI in the coming semesters... and possibly redo Chem II jsut to get a little bit better standing. Hmmm... Hmmm... So many things to consider.

Euthanasia

Euthanasia. Where do you draw the line? I had an eye-opening conversation last night that succeeded in confusing my already fuzzy stand on euthanasia. Originally, I was against it. It's murder, right? But, then after much deliberation, I decided that, in extreme cases, and when the person has decided it himself BEFORE being placed in the situation, and again after he is there, that it is legit and humane.

However. Here's an interesting twist. What if you have a loved one in a coma? And they will never recover. There is no "plug" to pull. One of your options is to stop feeding them. And by feeding, I mean, through an IV. Just take the IV out. If you didn't feed a person and he died, you were actively involved in the death, correct? And if you are actively involved, does that make it murder?

Should the person lying in a hospital bed, with no way to communicate, no way to recognize those loved ones, and no possible hope to recover be subjected to malnutrition? What amazes me is that this is a doctor approved option.

I might possibly think that if God put them in the position that they are in, they should be allowed to die. I.e. Without modern medicine, they would have already been dead.

But, on the flip side of the coin. If I was in a car crash, and without modern medicine, might die of blood loss, infection, or spinal injuries. But if modern medicine could save me, I would want it to, right?

Still thinking in circles,
Probably more on this issue when I am thinking more clearly

My own stupidity

Well. All my hard work, and I somehow miraculously manage to destroy my website. Don't ask 'cause I really don't know how that happened. So, um, welcome to the new edition. Some of the old, some of the new, but hopefully improved (or at least that's what you should tell me to make me feel better :P)

So, in honor of the new page, I figure I should make a *journal* post. Er. *Ranting* post.

I went bathing suit shopping today. I don't think that there is anything else out these that can make me so frustrated and selfconscious. It looks so cute on the hanger... that is until you try it on and realize that there seems to be an entire back, or super low front, or, eek, an entire midriff showing. Now, I have nothing against that, if you feel comfortable in it. But I don't. Anyway, long story short, I found one suitable one. By suitable, I mean one that I wouldn't feel I had to run and cover up if my father saw me on the beach wearing it. But I didn't buy it... I think I need another opinion. Bah. Why are bathing suits so small? You can't hide anything. Guys don't have to parade around in speedos if they don't want to; they have options. So what are the options for the girls? A t-shirt and shorts? It may come to that.

Signing off, and still
Not a size 2